We lost our dear, dear Daisy on Tuesday morning. As I write this, it has been less than 24 hours since she left us.
Saturday was a normal day for us. It was nice weather, we sat on the porch, Daisy with us, as usual. We did some work around the house, and as usual, Daisy followed, settling in in whichever room we were in. In the evening, we watched a movie, me on the couch with Daisy tucked under my arm, every now and again looking into my eyes with her brown eyes, and then putting her chin down with a contented sigh.
Sunday morning, when we awoke, she went out side but when she came in, she looked weak, she wouldn't eat her favorite food and I knew she was not well. Based on her serious health problems last fall, I took her to the animal hospital. They admitted her and she didn't seem too bad. But by evening, she had taken a downward turn. Over the next 2 days, we spared no expense and the doctors did everything they could. But she could not be saved. I will not get into the very difficult details of her last hour.
We are devastated. We never expected to lose her so quickly. Grief tears at me, threatens to pull me into a thousand pieces. I can't think, I can't sleep, I can't eat. Only think of her. I don't know when I will post again- there is no color in my world, and while I go through the motions, all I can think is, why bother? I don't think I will ever have a dog again. I cannot bear to give my heart away again. Over the next couple of days, I will sort through some of her things and take them to the animal shelter where they can be put to good use. I will try to get back to normal, but nothing will ever be the same again. I know that there will be good and joy again, but right now, I can not see it. My heart is too broken.....
We buried her last night in the field in front of our house. She loved being outside, loping around the fields, patrolling her yard, sniffing at everything like it was brand new even though she had sniffed it a thousand times before. Everyday was an adventure for her, and our 2 acres was her little kingdom. She was our princess. She is forever in our hearts. I don't know how I will bear the days without her. I just can't believe that she is gone. I feel like she has taken my heart with her.
Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail.
They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness.
I say to myself, "The Lord is my portion, therefore I will wait for Him."